Action and Reaction...

This blog is about my experience of becoming a full-time photographer. The process of having the guts, the discipline, dedication, determination and vision of setting a very meaningful goal, and see it come to fruition.

The last four years have been very rocky and confusing for me. My marriage of eight years ended sadly. Because of my subsequent depression and the worst recession since the last Great Depression, I was laid off from a job that I loved and cared for. Many people, familiar with my pictures, advised me to become a full-time photographer. In the middle of so many frustrations, and sudden life-changing events, I found comfort in knowing that I could make this enjoyable hobby, my main source of income.

However, I lost focus. I made the mistaken of thinking that being a photographer, was only about developing a good eye, and taking wonderful, breath-taking pictures. I did not set any goals, and spent most of my time, traveling to the Dominican Republic, and spending money like a lunatic. I did enjoy most of it, met a lot of wonderful people, and visited many wonderful places. It was all very new to me. However, I began to feel lack and desperate about my situation. I didn't have any job, and my back accounts were quickly drying up. I pushed a lot of people away, got another job, and the photographer career was put on hold. I said to myself: I have to figure things out. What I did was, to quit.

Everything I am experiencing now is the result of my actions. My emotions. My decisions. My limiting beliefs, the stories. Even though I knew that I was responsible for my own life. I couldn't possible make the connection and let feelings of frustration and confusion to dominate my thinking. Every action has a reaction. My inability to see the predict the reaction, or think about the consequences of my actions, brought me to a place where I had no power. Those who know me, know that I am always preaching about psychology, about philosophy. About the why of things. But the truth is, I wasn't practicing what I preached. I was extremely unauthentic about everything. It has to stop.

Attaining goals, is the simple process of setting them on paper, working on them, and see them realized. I will share with you that experience. Thanks for reading.